Vulnerable

Published 06/23/2014 by Neds Rocillo

Isn’t it amazing how a person who once was a stranger, suddenly meant the world to you? but what if, just what if, you felt that he’s not the one you deserve and that you deserve better?

You know at this age, the worst thing we can do to ourselves is to fall for someone harder than they fall for us. And if you’d ask me if I’m the one falling harder? the answer is yes. I’m always the one who loves more. I guess, that’s my thing.

Do you guys believe that communication is the key to a lasting relationship? For me, communication is as important as trust. But what would you do if your partner isn’t communicating? I’m in a relationship with this guy and I feel that I always frustrate him whenever I open up about how I feel. I want to be honest and I just want to tell him everything that’s going on in my mind because I believe that he’s the one I’m supposed to be telling everything. I’m not the typical girl who would open up to her friends about her relationship problems. So whenever I feel we have a problem, I would always talk to him because I’m under the impression that people in a relationship are supposed to solve problems by discussing them.

But somehow, our discussions would usually turn into arguments. And it would come to a point where both of us would have no idea what the initial discussion was about. The conversation would have turned so many corners that we’d need a map to get out. And the argument would usually end not understanding each others feelings. I realized that I have to stay away from having any discussion about anything that would upset him or me. I agree with almost everything he wants until now that I realized, I’m living his life not mine.

I’m now afraid.. afraid to communicate, to show my vulnerability and believe me, its a lonely place to be. But my love is stronger than my loneliness. A relationship isn’t about leaving when something goes wrong. It’s about being there for the good and the bad. I believe that we’ll just have to work through this. I hope I’m not wrong that love is strong, love is kind, and love sticks around.

Q & A 2014

Published 06/03/2014 by Neds Rocillo

I also answered the same questions last December 2013. And I’m answering it again. I’m not deleting my 2013 answers. hihi 🙂

1. Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Yes 🙂

2. Would you date an 18-year-old at the age you are now? No BUT I’m dating a 19-year-old HAHA

3. When’s the last time you were aggravated and happy at the same time? today. 

4. Would you ever smile at a stranger? Yes 🙂

5. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? none I think. 🙂

6. Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? Yes Amber Pacific’s Forever reminds me of Hiro and Lek. 

7. What exactly are you wearing right now? Tank top and shorts.

8. How often do you listen to music? Everyday!

9. Do you wear jeans or sweats more? jeans 🙂

10. Do you think your life will change dramatically before 2015? I think so. 😐 

11. Are you a social or an antisocial person? Both? Introvert problems, eh? 🙂

12. Have you ever kissed someone whose name begins with the letter ‘A’? Nope. 🙂

13. What about ‘R’? He’s nickname starts with R so I guess my answer is Yes. :)) 

14. Can you drive a stick shift? no.

15. Do you care if people talk badly about you?  no. it’s none of my business. 🙂

16. Are you going out of town soon? I think so! 

17. When was the last time you cried? last Sunday, I was really worried of getting a job. 

18. Have you ever told someone you loved them? yes 

19. If you could change your eye color, would you? from black to brown 

20. Is there a boy who you would do absolutely everything for? yes 

21. Name something you dislike about the day you’re having. I miss my boyfriend it hurts. haha

22. Is it cute when guys kiss you on your forehead? yes 

23. Are you dating the last person you talked to? yes

24. What are you sitting on right now? Bean Bag.

25. Does anyone regularly (other than family) tell you they love you? yes

26. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? yes

27. Who was the last person you talked to before you went to bed last night? Homer. 

28. Do you get a lot of colds? no 

29. Does anyone hate you? yes

30. Do you have any empty alcohol bottles hidden somewhere in your room? none.

31. Do you like watching scary movies? yes 

32. Do you want your tongue pierced? no 

33. If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2012 

34. Did you have a dream last night? nope.

35. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?last night 🙂

36. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? no 

37. Do you think someone has feelings for you? yes. my boyfriend loves me. haha

38. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? I don’t think so.

39. Did you have a good day yesterday? yes, I was able to attend an interview, movie with Homer, and bond with my bffs.

40. Think back 2 months ago; were you in a relationship? yes, in a relationship with Homer. haha

41. In the next 48 hours, will you hang out with a girl? I don’t think so.

42. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? yes, Homer just said that last night. hahaha #clingy

43. What’s the best part about school? getting money from le parents and spending it not on books but on food. HAHA

44. Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? yes. 

45. Do you ever pass notes to your friends in school? yes  

46. Do you replay things that have happened in your head? yes. 

47. Were you single over the last summer? no.

48. Is your life anything like it was two years ago? no. 

49. What are you supposed to be doing right now? burning fats. haha

50. Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with? no

51. Are you nice to everyone? yes. 

52. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?  yes and worst, I fell in love with him. :))

53. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? yes

54. Are you good at hiding your feelings? before, no. but I’ve learned how to hide it now. 

55. Do you think you like someone? No. I love him instead. 😉 #cheeseballs

56. Have you kissed someone whose name starts with a ‘J’? Yes.

57. Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? both. but if I have to choose, I would choose boys. Less drama. 

58. Has anyone of your friends ever seen you cry? yes 

59. Do you hate anyone? yes 

60. How’s your heart? frustrated and happy at the same time.. 🙂  

61. Is there something that happened in your past that you hate talking about? yes 

62. Have you ever cried over a guy? yes 

63. Who is probably talking a load of crap about you right now? I don’t know and I don’t care 🙂 

64. Are your toenails painted pink? no, red.

65. Will your next kiss be a mistake? i don’t think so. 🙂 

66. Girls love it when boyfriends cry; correct? no, not me.  

67. Have your pants ever fallen down in public? no

68. Who was the last person you were on the phone with? Louis 🙂

69. How do you look right now? Stressed and sleepy. 

70. Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? Yes 

71. Can you commit to one person? yes.  

72. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell everything to? yes.

73. Have you ever felt replaced? yes 

74. Did you wake up cranky? yes! :))

75. Are you a jealous person? yes! 

76. Are relationships ever worth it? yes. no regrets just love. 🙂

77. Anyone you’re giving up on? yes.

78. Currently wanting to see anyone? yes 

79. Name something you have to do tomorrow? study what the job i’m applying for is about.

80. Last person you cried in front of? My parents.

81. Is there someone you will never forget? yes 

82. Do you think the person you have feelings for is protective of you? no.

83. If the person you wish to be with were with you, what would you be doing right now?talking and kissing and cuddling. hahaha

84. Are you over your past? yes 

85. Have you ever liked one of your best friends of the opposite sex? yes 

86. Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? yes 

87. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents,would you accept?Yes I’ve moved on & ready to forgive

88. So, the last person you kissed just happens to arrive at your door at 3AM; do you let them in? yes 

89. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? yes 

90. Will you be in a relationship in 2 months? hopefully, we’re still together by that time 🙂 I don’t wanna let go of this guy

91. Is there anyone you know with the name Michael? yes 

92. Have you ever kissed a Matthew? no 

93. Were you in a relationship in January? How was it going? no 

94. Were you happy with the person you liked in March? yes.

95. Don’t tell me lies, is the last person you texted attractive? yes. I’m attracted to my boyfriend.

96. Who do you have texts from? Homer.

97. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? I don’t think I’ll be able to say anything.

98. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? yes 

99. Who’s in your profile picture with you? My supposed-to-be-twin. lol jk it’s just me with the mirror effect

100. Ever kissed under fireworks? no.

101. Has anybody ever given you butterflies? yes 

 

Choose the man who…

Published 05/28/2014 by Neds Rocillo

1. Isn’t afraid to say I love you.

      Fact: All girls want a guy who says I love you every night and proves it everyday.

2. Loves and respects you as much as he loves and respects his mother.

       Fact: How a guy handles his lady is a reflection of the type of bond he has with his mother.

3. Isn’t too proud to admit he doesn’t want to lose you.

        Fact: The sad reality is that there are guys who are just afraid to tell you that you are not the one he has envisioned for his future, He just doesn’t want to lose your company or the comfort of having someone he likes to go out with. You are just easy and “good enough” to fill the time until that special woman comes along. 

4. Listens even when you think he isn’t.

         Fact: A woman is already in love with any man who listens to her.

5. Watches you sleep.

          Fact: When a woman feels safe enough to fall asleep with a guy means that the woman trusts them enough not to hurt them.

6. Kisses you on the forehead.

           Fact: One kiss on the forehead is sweeter than a thousand kiss on the lips. No lust but full of love and respect.

7. Would rather cut off his hands than put them on you.

           Fact: If you don’t want to, you don’t have to. Always earn the respect you deserve.

8. Who isn’t too ashamed to keep calling you when you won’t take his calls.

           Fact: You want that. Aren’t you?

9. Can never refer to you as “the one who got away” because he always knew he couldn’t live without you.

            Fact: A real man never stops showing a girl how much she means to him even after he’s got her.

10. Will stand up for you no matter what.

            Fact: A man has two options in a relationship:

                       a.) Stand Up and be the man she needs or

                        b.) Sit Down so she can see the man behind him.

11. Will learn something new for you.

             Fact: A man who learns everyday would definitely teach his woman new lessons in life.

12. Brings out the best in you.

              Fact: We all want to be with someone who brings out the best in us and not the stress in us.

13. Respects your family and friends as much as he respects you.

Fact: He must love or at least respect the people you love.

14. Doesn’t just text you, but rather, will pick up the phone and call you because he needs to hear your voice.

                 Fact: He’s really into you.

15. Who shows you his softer side, and admits the things he’s most afraid of.

                 Fact: The man trust you enough to admit that he’s also afraid of some things. And he’s already giving you a part of him that you could possibly break; his heart.

16. Thinks you’re pretty without makeup.

                Fact: He loves you just the way you are.

17. Is patient with you.

                Fact: Love is patient.

18. Wants to show you off to the world whether you’re in sweats or an evening gown.

Fact: When a guy wants to show you off to the world when you think you are at your worst, he sees you differently.

19. Who speaks with love and not anger.

                Fact: Nobody wants a person who makes his mouth work faster than his brain, right?

20. Who doesn’t need to be told you need him, he can just tell.

                Fact: A real woman can do it all by herself BUT a real man won’t let her.

This post doesn’t want girls to think twice about their guy. Most guys aren’t showy so give him time or try to read between the lines. I also understand that girls have their “dream” guys. But I would rather pick the right guy rather than my dream guy. Girls, always remember that a real man knows what we need so stop focusing on what you “want”. If you focus too much on what you “wanted”, you can become blind to truly see him when he finally arrives.

And to all the boys out there, MAN UP! and love her UNCONDITIONALLY.

Thanks for reading! 😉

He loves me or He loves me not.

Published 05/27/2014 by Neds Rocillo

1. Someone who sees the best in you.

If you were lucky enough to grow up with healthy parents, you have experienced the feeling of having someone who has always looked at your good qualities. Many of us missed that experience. You will be a lucky person if you have found a mate who is always looking at your ‘silver lining’. Too often today people are more than willing to judge you by your errors, not by your potential.

2. Someone who gives you the benefit of the doubt.

There are so many times in your life when you need that little edge, that little opportunity to take just that extra step. It can seem as if your efforts are going nowhere and although you want to keep moving forward, there are so many negatives staring you in the face. That person who knows things could go either way for you but takes that leap to believe you will make it is the person who is more valuable to you than gold.

3. Someone who watches over you.

We all need a guardian angel who is there, waiting to catch us if we stumble and fall, ready to pave the way for you when you cannot get moving. There are people who love you who do just that. There are people who do not make a big deal out of saving your bacon. Do you know who they are?

4. Someone to watch you back.

You never know these days who is waiting to catch you off guard, to make sure you don’t do well, to sabotage your efforts. You like to think that people will rejoice when you do well. Many don’t. If someone ‘has your back’ and runs interference for you when you are trying to run the gauntlet through life, give that person a big ‘thanks’ plus lots of your attention.

5. The person who tells you we all make mistakes.

I’m sure you all agree with me with this. We hate to be around that judgmental, harsh person who reminds us, ‘I told you so’, when things so south. We don’t need anyone else telling us what we already know. On the other hand there are people who just let us know that the only way any of us learn is through experience. When you have really ended up in the dumper and blew it, stay close to the one who knows that the person who hasn’t done anything wrong hasn’t done anything much.

6. The person who gives you advice from the heart, not from the head.

When the situation gets rough and some big decisions need to be made, it’s fine to have people outline the pros and cons of a problem and give you ‘head’ answers. But if you need a push sometimes to tip the scales, you always listen to this person who knows you must do what will let you live with yourself and have self respect.

7. The person who won’t be the ‘yes man’ who agrees with you

No one who loves you is going to give you the green light and tell you to let it rip if it’s clearly going to be bad for you. It’s sad that often you surround yourself with people who tell you what you want to hear. The one who loves you will tell you to get help for a drinking or drugging problem, to stop the extramarital affair, and to be a good and decent person.

8. Someone who tells you to knock back, smell the roses, and enjoy life part of the time.

If you are a person who is a real performer and doer, there are likely to be people around you who enjoy the fruits of your labor and want you to do even more. Sometimes you may even see yourself as only valuable when you are giving, doing, and performing. Listen to the person who tells you that life is short and you need breaks. That is the person who is looking out for you and your health.

9. The one who smiles at you and means it.

The person who loves you looks at you with eyes that smile and mean it. Too many people give you that slick smile, that quick pat on the back, and then forget that you even exist. The eyes are the windows of our soul and you can read into a person’s smile if it is saying, ‘You are a fine person and I want to be with you as long as possible’. Don’t fall for any phony smile that attracts you off in another direction, only to leave you stranded and alone.

10. Someone who sees you as beautiful, inside and out.

We know we aren’t perfect. There are only too many examples of us looking around and thinking that we have flaws and aren’t like the people on television. The person who truly loves us sees us through eyes of acceptance with no conditions. As you gain a few pounds and your hair gets thin, the person who sees you as attractive, inviting, and appealing is the person who loves you all the way, no strings or demands.

Nowadays, it’s really important to know who loves you. Everything in our society is throw away, and many people have carried that over into the most important relationships in their lives. Think hard and look carefully. People who love you , like comfortable clothes, are easy on the heart, mind, and soul.

And hey! Stop ruining a perfectly good flower when you know he loves you not.

Be A Good Man, Because A Woman Will Never Forget How You Treated Her

Published 05/21/2014 by Neds Rocillo

Thought Catalog

Too many of you say that women do not really want a nice guy. You firmly believe from your bad experiences that most women actually enjoy being treated badly. I can assure you this is not true.

Your words and your actions can have effects on a woman that will last her a lifetime. That cruel comment you made about her mother, that day you were so angry you called her out of her name, those times you ignored her for no reason at all, the times you chose not to text or call and decided your friends were more important than she was, the times you didn’t open her car door, or walk her to her front door like a lady, she carries those in her mind. And she carries them over to the next man.

Women remember every nice thing you do or say in the same way…

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Funny Life.

Published 04/09/2014 by Neds Rocillo

It’s been a long time, hasn’t it? A lot has happened. I’m sure you know that change is the only constant thing in this world. The change may be good or may be bad eitherway life has still it’s own way of making things funny. Yes life’s funny. Don’t you agree?

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One thing I’ve learned in the past few months was to see something funny in whatever life throws at us along the way. Whatever it is, just catch it and laugh at it. We should learn to find the funny side in everything. It’s the best technique for instant stress relief and dissolves anxiety and doubt. Try it.

2014 Bucket list

Published 01/05/2014 by Neds Rocillo

So basically, these are the things I want to accomplish by the end of the year! It’s a brand new year and that means new plans, and wishes!

1. Start Eating Healthy

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Well, I just realized that making this decision is an important step in becoming a healthier person. Hopefully, I will be able to accomplish this one! HAHA I guess, discipline is the key!

Believe me, I’ve tried doing this but obviously, I wasn’t able to succeed! But I’ve learned! Eating healthy is a sacrifice and an opportunity for self-improvement!

2. Learn to Drive

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Who doesn’t want to? Driving is one of the most useful and coolest skill in the world.  HAHA I seriously adore guys who can drive. For me, it’s very important to build  or develop confidence behind the wheel.

My friend ,Karsten, taught me how  to drive an automatic car. He let me use his  car and I wasn’t sure which one of us was more nervous. HAHA

Plus, I want to have a license! I promise to be a responsible driver! HAHA

3. Learn to Surf

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I think riding a wave is  empowering! According to a  study, surfing is great exercise  that will surely drop pounds!

This year, I want to stay focus  on my goals in life and I think  that surfing will help me learn  how to ‘focus’.

I’m sure it’s going to be fun and exciting! But I have to find a good surfing  spot! Any suggestions?

 

4.Learn how to Skateboard

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I want to learn how to skateboard! Many girls skateboard and I’m really amazed by them! This year, I want to be ‘somehow’ adventurous and extreme! HAHA

My friends told me that it’s not a good idea because I might get hurt but I’m still  eager to learn and I’m willing to make room for all the pain it will bring! HAHA

I want to start by buying my own penny board. 😉

5. Learn to Use Chopsticks Properly

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Yes! You’ve read that right! I don’t know how to use chopsticks! Such a loser I know. This is one of the reasons why I hate eating in Chinese restaurants. HAHA

This 2014, I have to learn how to use chopsticks properly! HAHA okay guys, stop laughing. :))

 6. Attend the Hot Air Balloon Festival

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One of the much-awaited event in the country is the Hot Air Balloon Festival  every February in Clark, Pampanga! and until now, I haven’t attend even once!

I think it’s still impossible for me to fulfill this one because february will be a very  busy month for me. 😦 But I’m still hoping! *crossfingers!

7. Start a Fashion Blog

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This is one of my dreams! I’ve always wanted to have my own fashion blog! I’m  inspired by my favorite fashion bloggers! I love the fact that they get new  beautiful clothes for free from their sponsors!!

I also have this passion for fashion! I wish I could just have clothes without  getting broke after. (I wish!)

8. 52 Week Money Challenge

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I agree that this is a great way to save up money! I hope I’ll be able to finish this without  making a fool of myself. HAHA

Note to self: Start Saving money for your future and your parents!!

9. Out of the country getaway with my family

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Last year, I’ve been to many places outside of the country. I know how my  parents worked hard to let me join school tours and so I decided that this year is  my payback time.

Since I’ll be graduating in less than 5 months, it’s my chance to save money for  them and give them what they deserve. I want them to discover and travel the  world with me. Hopefully, I could achieve this one. 🙂

These are the main goals of my life for this year! I am holding myself accountable by making a goal public. I’ve heard that if we have people to hold us accountable, we are much more likely to accomplish our goals. 🙂 Happy New Year! Spend it right! 🙂

How about you? what are the things you want to accomplish this year? 🙂

<3,

Neds