Vulnerable

Published 06/23/2014 by Neds Rocillo

Isn’t it amazing how a person who once was a stranger, suddenly meant the world to you? but what if, just what if, you felt that he’s not the one you deserve and that you deserve better?

You know at this age, the worst thing we can do to ourselves is to fall for someone harder than they fall for us. And if you’d ask me if I’m the one falling harder? the answer is yes. I’m always the one who loves more. I guess, that’s my thing.

Do you guys believe that communication is the key to a lasting relationship? For me, communication is as important as trust. But what would you do if your partner isn’t communicating? I’m in a relationship with this guy and I feel that I always frustrate him whenever I open up about how I feel. I want to be honest and I just want to tell him everything that’s going on in my mind because I believe that he’s the one I’m supposed to be telling everything. I’m not the typical girl who would open up to her friends about her relationship problems. So whenever I feel we have a problem, I would always talk to him because I’m under the impression that people in a relationship are supposed to solve problems by discussing them.

But somehow, our discussions would usually turn into arguments. And it would come to a point where both of us would have no idea what the initial discussion was about. The conversation would have turned so many corners that we’d need a map to get out. And the argument would usually end not understanding each others feelings. I realized that I have to stay away from having any discussion about anything that would upset him or me. I agree with almost everything he wants until now that I realized, I’m living his life not mine.

I’m now afraid.. afraid to communicate, to show my vulnerability and believe me, its a lonely place to be. But my love is stronger than my loneliness. A relationship isn’t about leaving when something goes wrong. It’s about being there for the good and the bad. I believe that we’ll just have to work through this. I hope I’m not wrong that love is strong, love is kind, and love sticks around.

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